Living after Losing
I am holding on to you.
In the middle of the storm, I am holding on to you. This is my resurrection song. – From the Crowder song, “I am”.
Baby, you make me smile. The memories still flood in and they are wonderful memories of our years together.
It hurts that we are in so much pain, grief over losing you. But, what we fail to realize is that the place you are at is a wonderful place, no pain, no sadness, no sorrow. I want to celebrate this homecoming with you, not be depressed over your departure.
Life will go on, and you will never fade from my love. I receive the strength, love, and grace that you have shown me, our kids, our grandchildren, family, and friends all these years. God has shown me that I can be strong and rise up to this challenge, after all, If God is with us, who can be against us.
Today, I will work through this grief, I will take it as it comes, and use it as strength, not letting it tear me down. The first thing that I will do is to use this strength to help our kids and grandkids find their own strength.
I want to enjoy living, so these revelations will serve as a foundation to live life in the way that God is intending me to.
I am holding on to you, baby. The memories, the life we have had together will never be forgotten and always be cherished.
I am holding on to my God, for it is the middle of this storm that He is revealing to me that He is carrying me, walking beside me, and guiding me.
“Honey, your spirit is in this home, family and our friends. We built this together and everything reflects you as much as anything else. Your love is in all your family’s hearts. We have had over 45 wonderful years together. No matter the circumstances we were in it to win it. Your spirit is in my soul. I wouldn’t be the man I am today without you. Your gentleness, kindness, love, compassion was the spark that drove me to become a better man.”